write 10 confessions that you want to make to 10 people, but won't. then tag 10 people


( Stand by for serious business o .o )

Dam this was hard o .o I can't tag also, do it if you want.

Ok cause I am way too lazy to answer th comments to my last post: thanks so much you guys, I'm half crazy with mood swings lately and you're all very reassuring ^.^ makes me feel better, honest. Now I'm tired so I'm going to bed happy lol. night night

I know it's so dumb to feel this way but everyone going off to college makes me feel like I'm being left alone. I know that's not really the case, or at least I hope I'm so. But everyones going off places and I'm left behind, forgotten with the coming of new experiences.

But whatever, I'll just get over it.

New icons wewt.

And I can't talk to Taylor on the phone anymore thanks to his parents. Makes me wana cry, but then his friend lets him call so I guess it's not no calls. Meh, still makes me sad.

Oh and I was tagged
( Cut for tag thing )

I wish I didn't get hopeful. It hurts so bad when things turn out wrong

Sunday Sunday Sunday! Everyone pray for Taylor, cause he might just MIGHT get his phone back then. He leaves for camp then and his friend says his parents might give him his phone back then. I'm hoping to god that he does lol. But if he don't his friend promises to let us talk at least? ;~; So there's really no downside, but I want him to have HIS phone back :x

In other news extreme loneliness got me to get up, clean my room which hasn't been in about 2 and a half months and then on top of that do laundry which I hate. lol. And I was just like wow . -. So this is where all my random junk went. Hi random junk! oh oh oh! Hi old pages I so want to redraw now :D <3 And yeah, stuff like that. I've started to update my dev art again and it's cool. o3o Nya stuffes like that. Oh here's a link if you want to see my other obsessiveness in details now: http://neonthrall.deviantart.com/

Put a bullet in me and call me sick, I'm officially dying to hear Taylor's voice for more than 30 minutes for only once a week and maybe not even then. And he thinks his parents might not let him have a phone anymore and god I just want to talk to him for hours and hours and this feels like some kind of torture. I can't stand it.

But to take my mind off that I've decided to try and get a job in the next few days. I just don't know where to start x.x

Meh so Taylor got his phone back and lost it again. But this time, no clue when he'll be getting it back x.x It makes me cry.

BUT. Taylor took my "I cried at night cause I missed you SOOO MUCH DDDDD:" to heart and has his friend calling me to keep me company. lol I can't help but go into one big awww moment when I'm told that. Cause it means he cares and is thinkin bout me :> And I love that, and his friend is funny and does keep me at least a little bit happy when he tells me story bout him and Taylor.

So while I'm rather MEH I'm not going crazy at least?

Oh and tomorrow I'm going to the book store and so getting me some horror stories to amuse myself at night and give me nightmares yay :D Oh and I need to get a job, any ideas?

And I must stop staying up to 4 and sleeping in to 2... it's bad for me somehow I'm sure

Ugh Taylor's mom found out! So now no telling when he'll get his phone back. And he says that this doesn't change anything, and nothing should happens, so why do I feel so scared? Why do I have all these awful doubts? Ugh, I want to believe, but god I feel so scared and I don't know why

Well then... today has been weird o-o So I got a red and black plaid mini-skirt thing, and wore it today with a black shirt I got awhile ago. And I looked cute in it I think lol. But yeah, my dad was all like WOW :D! o-o He really liked it lol. And it was just the weirdest bit of complimenting I've ever gotten lol. But ya know at least he understood when I said I like to dress like that I just didn't for school. Mom was all like WTH I don't get you at all. T.T

But yeah, went to Hot Topic with Lyn and saw another skirt I wanted >: But there was only larges and smalls! But imma order it cause it was really cute ^o^ I'm having fun dressing different from how I'm used to.

Nya Taylor got his phone taken away by his witch mother D:< And he's guessing he won't get it back for a week T.T So that's a week without my good night phone call, and a week without my constant talking with him over text. Nya it's not fair at all x.x And I know in the long run that's nothing but MEH. I love him so much it hurts when I can't talk to him sometimes >_< I just want to hug him tight all the time and never let him go .////.  It's gonna be a long week x///x

Meh this week has been a total emotional roller coaster @-@ it sucks. One minute I'll be super happy, and then reality hits and I just feel so meh! I'm sick of living with my parents, I can't stand to be around them sometimes .-. Nya I just need to move out or something, and soon, or I might go crazy >_<

Nya lucky for me I've got a sweet boy on the phone listening to me and always encouraging me otherwise I don't think I could make it. Nya when I talk to him I just say everything I feel and I love that so much o///o I'm such a dummy, thinking about him so much lol. Ah well guess that's just love~

Nyaa I stayed up all night until 7 in the morning :D and I'm so tired right now but I can't sleep another minute. I've been staying up every night but this was crazy. All for my adorable fool I talk to constantly over the phone now >///< Nya. And yay new green backgrounds cause green is awesome and gosh my thoughts are random right now and my head hurts :) Yet I'm really really really happy from dilirium fweee

Graduating was very surreal.  I felt weird afterwards so I ditched my mom and walked home. I know I should be celebrating and happy but all this doesn't feel like something that important... I'm not really happy other than I don't have to go back, and I'm not sad. I just don't even feel anything about the whole thing. I just feel weird...

Watching my cat not comprehend that he can not play with a line of marker on a peice of paper makes me almost fall out of my desk chair XD

@_@ I got another prescription and it gave me the worst stomache since I just took it without food. Promise I'll be at school tomorrow. Sorry if I've made you guys worry >>

Hey guys, I know I am very doomsday-y at times but this time my sad facination with researching food and the FDA has brought me to something I am terrified of truly. It's an artifical sweetner called Aspartame. THIS SHIT CAUSES BRAIN TUMORS.  And what's more it is in almost EVERY diet cola we drink. This stuff is dangerous, there's tons of evidence saying it is so. But still it's being used. And while there may not be some obvious effects this stuff builds up.

Here's a documentary: The opening/Tumors: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB-SXOYnXeY&feature=related  The studies: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTHojtXKXKU 

You don't really need to watch it all, but still it's interesting.

I don't want to scare you guys, and I don't want to sound nuts. I'm not asking you give up soda or anything like that, just don't drink diet. This freaks me out, and with so many complaints and possible problems I can't believe this is still going on. This is absolute neglence. Everyone means a lot to me and seeing this scares me. Truly.

Finals are evil and I am the first to go in my lit final interview thing. Lyn helped me bunches because she is wonderful like that, and I am quite tired. Finals are like the cure to insomnia because afterwards everyone sleeps for like half the break. Am I right? I totally am.

Stolen from postpossibly 

Rules:
- Pick your birth month
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under an LJ-cut

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

( monthes )

Sorry if I seemed a little bitchy today guys. >> I'm just kind of mentally tired of school and want it to permanently blow up and what not.

But yeah. Guh.

I hate bookcards to death. ;-; Someone save me D:

Doctors, needles, and blood are evil. Oh how my arm hurts D: I know that means I'm a wimp but oh god! I had to look away when they were getting a blood sample. -cry- So other than the blood test results I appear to be all good.
Oh and being forced to not eat makes me tired and sore. Gwah I hate the pains it takes to stay healthy.

Anyway I am the fine now and just need to do homework and what not. I'd rather go to bed.... and expel the image of my all too ready to flow out blood. Jeez that was creepy >: